Monday, June 15, 2009

Long time no blog post............

Things in Sara world have been pretty hectic of late meaning, blogging has taken a bit of a back seat. I've been seeing a lightness and a feeling of becoming hopefully more creative and productive again. I'm hoping to design a large mirror and white tiled mosaic for my garden so that when the sun or moon shines, its light will be reflected all around into space!

Have been listening to The Shortwave Set and The Band of Horses. Band of Horses song Funeral, truly blows my mind..so melancholic yet bloody beautiful at the same time! I was led to their tunes afer the man showed me a BMX video with Funeral used as the soundtrack and after that, I had to seek out these guys' tunes!

This weekend has also been a hectic one. A party to attend Saturday, with some of my mates and brother and wife meeting the man. Hence, too much alcohol was drunk and I literally forced us to go for an early morning - 1am, bike ride down the river to watch and listen to the wonderful flowing water. He must think I'm mad, but not that he doesn't have his own mad man and outlandish moments!
Sunday, we took ourselves for a long swim, playing in the water together was great fun and such a great feeling especially when there was only 5 other people swimming in the pool!
Last night we chilled and watched a film together ready for a good night's sleep and an early wake for the man as he was commuting back to Manchester this morning 6am, to get a deadline completed with his job.

Already he's discussed moving to Nottingham..the only fear is jobs and his house. However, an art course at uni beckons him and I see no reason why I shouldn't support his dream being a reality! We'll see, still early days but when I'm with him it all feels so calm, loving and free. Don't get me wrong, I have my anxieties and I realise that my self esteem has been knocked over many years - and I'm talking 10 or more years..I guess when our exterior gets chipped at, the interior crumbles somewhat and this is where the rebuilding of oneself, on some level, has to start again. Difficult and a long battle and me being such a thinker, can be problematic. The key is to do rather than think, just as my man reminded me about a similar Bruce Lee quote. I think also, the love I receive is different from any sort of past love and this taps into childhood stuff that has never been there, hard to explain but enlightening all of the same! When asked at the party on Saturday how long the man and me have known each other, he replied, '3000 years, have I known Sara'..Blows my mind at times and thus have to really keep a lid on it!

I'm again starting to write some poems but the tone is so different, in my opinion..A good friend commented to me that she is glad to have the old Sara back - apparently, I've been gone someplace else for the last 12 years, which for an outsider to observe is an interesting and weird though indeed!

Work has been hard on some level but inspiring on another; a student of mine wrote the most fantastic article about graffiti art - brilliant stuff and gave me a real buzz to read her work and times like this remind me that my job is so worthwhile!

8 comments:

Furtheron said...

sounds like the reasons for less blogging are very good ones...

Daniel Hoffmann-Gill said...

I agree with Futheron, you've got a life, enjoy it, don't blog it!

Sara said...

Haha or maybe I could try blagging it??? ;-)

Daniel Hoffmann-Gill said...

A shameless plug of sorts...

http://www.virginmediashorts.co.uk/films/film/the-stall/

The Preacherman said...

He's a Manc?

Never mind nobody's perfect..;-)

You enjoy life babe, with or without blogging.

As the Peppers said "Life is not a run through" xx

Blasé said...

..'bout time you got back.

Sara said...

DHG, thanks for link - will check this ;-)
Preacher man - Yeah a Manc through and through darling! They say 'darling' and 'sweetheart' a lot in Manc land..or maybe that's cos I am a darling and a sweetheart??? All I know is, he's been a gift to me!

Aunt Jackie said...

Things all work in mysterious ways, everything is always in Divine order. Just enjoy and make the most... moment to moment.

We are spirits having a human experience. :)

It's all magick!