One woman's start of a story....

Once upon a time, there lived a young woman who wanted to experience life and all it had to offer. Along the way though, other responsibilities came into place such as children and motherhood. Anyway, as the mother of her first child, she was a committed, dedicated mother with mountains of love to give.
With the birth of the second child, the story was a little different. Throughout the pregnancy she experienced conflict and lack of appreciative support from her partner. Because of this, she became aggressive and mistrustful, suspicious inside and thought people were being nasty, when in actual fact, her mind was playing tricks on her and her hormones were raging. All she really wished for was the loving support of the boyfriend. She'd go to bed alone wishing her partner would be there with her to share her daily stories, experiences and love. This was not forthcomimg.
One day, whilst in a cafe, she felt the most strange urge to 'lash out' at a stranger because of his perceived bad opinion. Luckily, she refrained from this violent act, but it taught her a truth; a truth about where her head was and the emotional pressure and stress she was enduring.
On New Year's Eve, before the child was born, she experienced awful conflict with the partner even though she was 8 months pregnant. Through discussion though and hope, this conflict was resolved although, the mother felt a sense of mistrust and resentment from now on.
Over the years, the conflict was buried but reared its ugly head, mainly, when the partner or herself had been drinking.
As time went by, the mother started to feel unloved and neglected. She endured night after night of lonely sleeping, when deep down inside, all she wanted was to share a loving, caring relationship with a soulmate; she felt as though her passion and depth were being supressed and stifled.
Luckily though, she was a strong character who ensured she experienced fun in life. Fun in life now meant, time with her friends and escaping her home life on some subconscious level. Offers from interested men became apparent over time, even though she was still dedicated to the son of her father, the last thing she wanted to do was upset and indeed, hurt anyone.
She met a friend at work who indicated a liking for her; She refused.
She met a friend at college who indicated a passion for her; she refrained, even though, she quite liked this person. Indeed, to her, she still had hope and love for the son's father.
However, One evening she encountered a rather profound meeting with someone with whom she experienced a strange connection to. A connection that was difficult to comprehend. She tried to put off this person because of her situation, but he wouldn't have any of it. No, he really wanted to maintain some form of contact, even though she explained her situation. This person left a mark on her heart. She couldn't explain why but he just did. She felt as though she'd always known him and felt so comfortable in his presence; Because of these things, she contacted him again and arranged to meet him. The feelings seemed to be mutual.
On meeting her new friend again, she realised that she had extremely strong feelings for this person and she sensed that he did her.
However, complications and life seemed to prove the winner over affairs of these hearts, even though she'd encountered some of the most beautiful, deeply touching moments with this soul.
As time passed by, she'd randomly bump into her friend and share lovely, special, warm times. These times, however, were often all too short lived for her liking and replaced by destructive times, which she felt she had no control over, which in turn had a negative effect on her psyche and heart.
Deep down, she felt this was the person she really wanted to share everlasting times with but didn't know how to acquire this or indeed didn't want to put any pressure on anyone.The last time she saw this friend was truly magical but because of previous rejection, she did'nt know how to react afterwards to her friend; scared and fearful about further rejection.
To be continued...............