Reasons, friends and oobejoobie

Weirdly, today has been full of the most strange but lovely happenings. I met a few good friends in the city;we sat in the pub and had some warming winter drinks and had much laughter about our secret word - ooobeeejooobie.My friend bought me a beautiful rose quartz heart and said that she thought I needed help with my heart for it has been sad and she feels that I need some happiness in my heart, which rose quartz is reputedly good at bringing. I will sleep with it tonight and cherish it I reckon!

I received a text from my recent friend, Gangstaman, who I see hardly anything of but who I do enjoy chatting to a fair bit. He again has been in London this weekend. He asked if I would like to meet up with him when he arrived back in the city..I said maybe, depending on time etc...anyway, my friends and I then went to get a German sausage and some hot chocolate with Baileys in. Afterwards, my gangstaman mate was quite into meeting up so I said OK. Anyway, on the way to the station to meet him, I walked across the lovely water feature in the Market Square. My friend was urging me not to take such a risk but I am a risk taker, it has to be said! We crossed the water feature safely, no-one drowned. I texted gangstaman back and asked him when his train would be arriving back in the city; no answer. OK, I thought, maybe he's just playing games or has changed his mind. I texted again. No reply. Hmm. So I decided to go home and chill out.

Tonight, I received a sweet phone call from him apologising that his phone battery had gone and thus couldn't text me back to arrange when to meet! He apologised profusely and asked if he could link up with me as soon as possible. As soon as possible will be the week after this now, as I have a weekend away this weekend and have no childcare during the week. What I like about this man is the fact that he talks very openly and frankly about his issues and the fact that he's dealing with them. I never feel like he's judging me and my life situation. I even told him my ex had been staying here to which he said as long as you get on, then that seems all cool..I like the fact that he's open and honest with me. I like the fact that he's started to compliment me quite a lot even though we've not spent hardly any time together.

Anyway, I'll plan a day to see him after my weekend break. He made me laugh when he said, Do I think he'd make a good escort? He needs money and is a poor student...the things the brain thinks about eh??? I told him to focus on his studio work in his flat and music, to finish his dissertation and to focus on the creative things rather than the need for money..

I tried to call beloved but he failed to pick up twice, my conclusion was that he was with his girlfriend and didn't want to chat with me..he texted me later and asked me to call tomorrow, saying he'd been wrecked after last night and thus, it'd be better maybe to chat tomorrow. I know this man will forever live in my heart, my heart aches so at times because I miss his presence and soul but my heart can't keep feeling heavy and achey, it can't keep feeling denied of love..The rose quartz will help me, I'm determined.

So, the plans for today were all a bit random but fum all of the same..I hope gangstaman sticks with his plans to have certain help with some issue that he discussed with me, he's open to it and thus I know he's ready to help heal his heart..

Life moves and we're all moving along in it and there's certainly a reason for evrything in our lives.
"If we continue to do as we've always done, then we'll always get what we've always got.."